and this will probably be the last i ever say on this subject…
so, it was memorial day in the states last weekend and i missed out on all the deliciousness that is a memorial day bbq with hot dogs and hamburgers and watermelons and cold busch light in a can. it’s amazing how delicious and satisfyingly good bad american beer is compared to any korean beer. ugh. but alas, i digress. my mom ran into carl at publix, both tending to last minute bbq shopping errands. apparently he (and his mom, reason #495857 i’m happy i’m over him, because 30 and living with your mom is so not okay) were doing a greek themed bbq. they chatted for a bit and my mom relayed the whole story back to me of course, with the added tidbit that he looked like shit. in her words, “it was sunday and it wasn’t like I was winning any beauty contests or anything….but, let’s just say….you’re so much better off.” I can only imagine he was wearing those gross red gym shorts, hadn’t showered, glasses and scummy hair. ew, i am so much better off. anyhow, we talked for a bit today on skype and i don’t know why this surprised me, but, sure enough….he mentioned how he had been thinking about me earlier that day and when i tried to pry for more, like, oh, “what were you thinking about?” he got all quiet and couldn’t even muster up anything. “oh, you know, just thinking about you.” fucking a. the fucking fucktard still can’t manage to show any emotion, give any feeling or passion to anything. I’m so over him. I don’t know how I managed to convince myself for so long that he was right for me, that i should make it work. he’s beyond hope. completely ambitionless, passionless, thoughtless, just moping thru life with nothing to show. also, let me just mention, that he’s completely daft!!! it’s so obvious via my facebook that i’m seeing someone else and he still makes comments as if we’re together, and we talk maybe once a week or even less! and with that, i can safely assume, that this chapter of my life is over. yay!
